7/23/2006
i guess it's going alright. pretending is a great way to ignore certain stuff..but will it be better, i wonder.. wen it all comes back to me? a huge stack of troubles, worries,sadness back at me. willi be able to take it? procrastination. y,y,y? even for things i love doing.. i seem to be pushing them back. normal? i think not. even the readers digest competition.. i'm not able to qualify cuz u noe y? cuz i pushed it back.. thinking i had a lot of time another day. even wen i'm completely bored.. i don't seem to do it.

if the people around me would just leave me alone for a while.. i would be able to show the truth. i HATE having to smile wen i'm feeling lousy.. but i'm not even given a choice.. i HAVE to. y do i haf to be my normal self wen i'm not myself now? wth. hate pretending with my parents. it always gets worse.. wish they'd leave me alone for like 1 hr. if only..

he's here. he.. is in my house. the house that I live in. he ain't gonna get out anytime soon. unfortunately..

another he is getting more and more.. fans. girls especially. yea i'm feeling a lil jealous. feeling crappy abt it.. don't even want to say anymore.. haiix..

hmm my match is a cancerian? a taurian n a cancerian? umm.. ok.. cancers-june 21-july 22... right.. i noe a lot a lot of male cancers.. is tt supposed to mean something? well watever

this post has been a waste of time.. but i love LOVE blowing bubbles! bubble gum rocks! wahahs.. i ate so much ice cream. well, gelato actually. i had peach gelato. n the fresh peach flavor is astonishing! the texture was like.. somewhere between a soft serve ice cream n the dense, 'chewy' gelato.. it's just AMAZING. the flavours r so intriguing..surprisingly i found the slight tangy peach flavour refreshing. it's ever so slight tt u can barely notice it.. n the gelato just MELTES in ur mouth.. of course leting u taste it's full flavour b4 melting..omg m i promoting gelato? hah lol i think i'm doin a pretty good job, eh? wat the ehck does blowing bubbles n bubble gum got to do gelato anyway? erm.. k nvm

i'm just gonna go sleep or something. least i can forget everything..